I just want to mean something

when my lungs

have emptied completely

and I can no longer

act or change a thing

I hope the event

of my being

and my life

meant something

not to someone

but to the One

Who holds my eternal future

in His hands 

I pray

Lord, will I have

loved You enough

was my life in line

with Your will

did I fit into

Your perfect puzzle

or will I be labelled


Lord, banish my

selfish ambition

I just want to mean something

before I melt into



Wake up before you can’t. 

Imagine living your whole life ignoring the eternity that will come, then ending up spending your eternity wishing you hadn’t ignored it all. You looked past the signs and warnings that said: “Repent now! Jesus saves.”, “Heaven is for real! But so is hell.” and “Come to Jesus. He is the only Way!” 

Well, maybe there were moments when you thought about it, you know, eternal life and all… but it was quickly shoved back into the “things we don’t talk about” box in your mind. Now you are next in line to face the judgement of God, Whom you never knew, Whose existance didn’t matter much to you and you can’t do anything about it now.

Everything you did and chased was for NOTHING. Your fame and comfortable retirement. Your poverty and the tears you cried for vanity. Whatever the case may be… It doesn’t matter now. You missed the point, when it was always there right in front of you. You didn’t take Jesus’ hand when He was always reaching out to you.

Or maybe you did, or you thought you had. You went to church every Sunday, sometimes you prayed and talked about Jesus. You got baptised and joined youth groups. You even helped out the community and gave to the poor. You did everything right, right?

The guy in front of you in the line is crying and screaming at the Lord… He is saying “Lord, Lord but I was Your servant! I was a pastor and an evangelist, I prayed, I worshipped and I obeyed.” 

“You did not know Me, son.” the voice of God replies.

The hairs on your back rise and you feel your heart turning into ice. “Why? Why didn’t you get to know Jesus while there was still time?” 

News flash, here is your chance. Jesus is coming back! Stop caring what other people think, they will not be facing your judgement. You will.

It is not your works that get you into heaven, but it is your personal relationship with Christ.

The reason you worship Jesus should not be because you want to go to heaven, it should be beacause He shed His blood and died on the cross for YOU. If eternal life is simply a gift from God to those who love Him, what else does He have planned for His children? 

But, as it is written, “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him”—

1 Corinthians 2:9 ESV

What are you thinking?

Your thoughts reflect your actions. To change your actions, you need to change your thoughts.

“With Christ in the vessel

I can smile at the storm.” 

These lyrics to a song I recently heard has been going through my mind today. Over and over. Without noticing, I even started humming the tune.

“With Christ in the vessel

I can smile at the storm.

Until He takes me home.”

These words comfort me. It reminds me that I can face the storms of life when Christ is in me (the vessel). Thinking about my day, I had a very pleasant mood throughout it. Yes, not-so-pleasant stuff happened, but I didn’t feel afraid or threatened by them as I usually would have. I felt content and at peace if I can say it like that. I believe this song -those words- being in my thoughts played a part in that. Our minds and hearts are what control our every move.

“Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life.” –Proverbs 4:23 ESV 

What we think directly reflects in our behaviour and attitude. 

This lead me to ask myself a question: How much time do I waste filling my mind with earthly things? To be honest probably too much. I mean we are so caught up in this world and its things that we don’t realise what we are doing. If having a song of praise stuck in my head influenced my mood so much, how much more would a positive and thankful heart and mind affect my life?

But we all know that it is not that easy… just to have positive thoughts and be thankful throughout the storm. Our flesh is weak. That is why we need to pray for strength and we need to fight the constant battle between our flesh and our spirit. This battle can only be won when you surrender to the Holy Spirit and choose God’s truth over your circumstances, emotions and the enemy’s lies.

“Watch and pray, that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” – Matthew 26:41 ESV

“For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.” – Romans 8:6 ESV

If we live with negative thoughts, earthly desires and even fill our minds with music/movies/books etc. that does not honor God, it will be reflected in our actions and attitudes. We have received a direct order to set our minds on things above and not to conform to the things of this world.

“Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.” -Colossians 3:2 ESV

“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” – Romans 12:2 ESV

Why should I testify?

We all have a testimony people need to hear.

2 Timothy 1:8 – “Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord, nor of me his prisoner, but share in suffering for the gospel by the power of God, “

“Is there anyone with a testimony?” the pastor asks. You see everyone looking around and you can’t help thinking they’re waiting for you to get up. Thoughts rush through your mind.
My testimony isn’t really that big. What will they think of me? What will I say? 

Does that sound familiar? I know I’ve been there. It is difficult to just get up and speak, telling strangers what the Lord has done for you. The enemy puts these thoughts into your mind, making you doubt your testimony and fear what people may say or think. That is when you pray to the Lord, asking for strength and courage so you may glorify Him in your testimony. No testimony is too small or insignificant. We all have something we can be grateful for. Everyone has a testimony. What God has done for you, should be a reminder of His grace and goodness! Your testimony should be in your heart, in your mind and on your lips. Telling people what Jesus has done for you, may just be the hope they need to keep believing or even start. Testimonies are very powerful. Hearing what God has done for others, is encouraging. It reminds us of the God we serve, the powerful God who is the Alpha and Omega, the God who can do all things.

Recently in one of the services at church there were some people of the church who came to testify. There was a man who spoke about how he didn’t have work for so long but he prayed and asked the Lord to give him a job. He handed out his CV at so many places and advertised himself on the internet and he really went and tried to get a job, but a year passed and still nothing had come his way. Many people said they could not hire him because he was too old or over-qualified. Despite all that, he kept on believing that the Lord will provide for him. He received a phone call from someone telling him to come for an interview in the city, but he did not have enough money to get there so the man said that he should call them the following day. He told the man that unfortunately he couldn’t call them because he did not have airtime to do so, and the man said that he would send him enough airtime so he could call them. Long story short, he got the job, and the salary was more than a double of that which he expected. The Lord provided for him.

A boy also delivered a testimony. I could see how shy he was. He kept looking down and the pastor handed him the mic. It was like there was a battle taking place in his heart just so he could say the words he wanted to. The boy said that he was placed in an orphanage and he was bullied by the other children. I don’t exactly know the circumstances but his mother prayed for his return and he was now back at home. He simply said he was back home, and I could see how grateful he was for that. Simply to be back with his parents and out of the crosshairs of bullies. Praise the Lord for working through that little boy! Such a simple testimony had an enormous impact on me. I saw how grateful this little boy was despite what he went through. I just wanted to go give him a hug and thank him for the courage he had to speak up.

These are only two of the many testimonies I have heard in my life. It is so important to see that your testimony is not for yourself. We testify to glorify God and to thank Him for what He has done for us. Your testimony is an encouragement for others, it reminds people to cling to hope. To cling to Jesus.

1 John 5:9-12 “If we receive the testimony of men, the testimony of God is greater, for this is the testimony of God that he has borne concerning his Son. Whoever believes in the Son of God has the testimony in himself. Whoever does not believe God has made him a liar, because he has not believed in the testimony that God has borne concerning his Son. And this is the testimony, that God gave us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. Whoever has the Son has life: whoever does not have the Son of God does not have life.” 
Wow! Isn’t that powerful? The testimony is in those who believe in the Son of God, and in the Son of God there is eternal life!

Don’t forget your testimony, here is a part of mine:
To understand why I believe in Jesus, you need to understand what He has done for me: My whole life and existence is a testimony. Jesus did the unthinkable for me. He spilled His blood and gave His life so I may have a future… He took my sins like crimson and made me white as snow. He goes to prepare a place for me so that I may be with Him. He left a precious gift for me, that guides me through the struggle. This Holy Ghost lives inside of me and teaches me to deal with trouble. My Jesus calls me by my name! God had mercy on me and gave me a purpose. I am thankful for He has given me food to eat and a bed to rest my head. He has opened doors that no man can shut. He has given me His love, which is more than I could ever ask for. The best is yet to come: Jesus is coming back!
Do you know this Jesus?

This is only a part of what Jesus has done for me. I praise God for His mercy! I would love to hear your testimony. Feel free to comment below and share.